a little better.

things have calmed down a "little" the past week or so. lyle is finally home and its nice to have some help around the house. its nice to have someone to talk to! we had an awesome mothers day weekend and truly felt like a queen. i love him!

anger

There are times in your life where you can't help but feel extreme anger over things you cannot control. That anger, for me, turns into extreme sorrow. I am at a point where I feel resentment, and helplessness. Perhaps just really feeling sorry for myself. At any rate, its my 30th birthday and its been the worst of all birthdays in my recollection. Lets try and stay on the positive and hope this is the ONLY worst birthday i've ever F'N HAD.

On the plus side, I have a beautiful, healthy and happy son. He truly is my whole world. Without him, who knows.