a little better.

things have calmed down a "little" the past week or so. lyle is finally home and its nice to have some help around the house. its nice to have someone to talk to! we had an awesome mothers day weekend and truly felt like a queen. i love him!

anger

There are times in your life where you can't help but feel extreme anger over things you cannot control. That anger, for me, turns into extreme sorrow. I am at a point where I feel resentment, and helplessness. Perhaps just really feeling sorry for myself. At any rate, its my 30th birthday and its been the worst of all birthdays in my recollection. Lets try and stay on the positive and hope this is the ONLY worst birthday i've ever F'N HAD.

On the plus side, I have a beautiful, healthy and happy son. He truly is my whole world. Without him, who knows.

blue.

going through a bit of depression this week. here's hoping for brighter days.

A boy and his dog

My baby is obsessed with the dogs, we arent too confident to let them get too close yet. One day they will be great friends.

My 30th Birthday is in 12 days.

What by chance would I like for this momentous occasion? This baby:

 

Why do you ask?? So I can have the same last name as this baby:

Busy Busy Busy

The month of April this year has come and gone in a blur-travelling with a 7 month old infant will do that to you! We went to Oklahoma to meet up with Lyle's folks and then drove to Kansas to see Lyle for a few days. It was fun to visit but travelling alone with my son was really, REALLY not fun. Actually, the airport and travel to and from there was fine. It was trying to keep a wiggling baby still for 2.5 hrs on a flight that was hell. The entire flight I thought to myself "are we there YET????!!!" ugh. it sucked so bad. Robert left a huge mess on the plane and it was very embarrassing and stressful to try and keep him quiet. I really do not recommend it. he was "good" and didnt really cry...but next time I would like to bring someone with to help. I feel brave for trying it though!!

Next week one of my very best friends is coming to visit and I cannot wait to have some girl time with someone who knows me best and vice versa. Being 1500 miles from family tends to tug at your heartstrings at times and its good to surround yourself with the ones you love.

Here Are a few photos from the trip!

Robert in LAX

 Here he is trying to eat Papa Riley's shoelaces

 A school house at the Old Cowtown Museum in Wichita KS

 Drugstore at Old Cowtown Museum

 It was so nice to be in the country again. I cannot WAIT to move back.

 Robert burning off some steam in Oklahoma airport before we leave to go back to LA

 One of the MANY shuttles we took at the airports. I hate them.

 Beautiful traffic on the 405 on the way home. Don't worry, traffic was going about 2 mph.

Lyle, Robert, and Lyle's Dad Tim and I at the Old Cowtown Musuem.

 Finally home and in our jammies!! So happy to be at home!!

lazy saturday

It's been an exhausting week and I am so thankful for the weekend. Unlike Lyle I really enjoy just staying at home and recharging on my saturdays and sundays-and getting stuff done around the house. With the baby here I keep so busy during the week between him and the house, I really just need time to unwind-and spend some quality time with my little man.